This year has been good. My absence from this blog does not indicate a lack of faith. My faith is always growing, prayers are many, journals are full just not publicly. I guess fear of criticism has me withholding this journey more than I intended. Not proud of that.
I have been reflecting lately about God’s plans and where He has taken me. Sometimes I struggle with feeling important. Regardless, I promised myself I would always follow God’s plan for my life despite the plans I had for myself. His plans are always greater.
In case you didn’t already know, mothers have a lot of pressure to do it all. Be the go to parent to take the kids to doctors and other various appointments. Make sure they have and prepare balanced meals/snacks. Making the house a home and maintaining the home for the children to thrive in. On top of all these tasks we have the added pressure to provide financially. If it’s not actually providing income it’s to work on ways to save the one income because living on 1 is extremely difficult. So attempting to do something about this I was led towards a new adventure.
I opened and closed a short (year long) chapter in my life recently. I was working with a certain famous direct sales clothing company. At the time it was an answered prayer. Things changed. It was successful until one day it wasn’t. It was a very different year for me and I learned so much about myself. I enjoyed feeling worthy and having loved ones proud of me. As a stay at home mom I’ve dreamed of helping my husband with the financial burdens we face. I value this time home with my young children but also strive to try all outlets possible on my end. I remember being a teenager and babysitting for a woman who rocked and still rocks a makeup direct sales business. She always asked me to babysit her 4 children as much as I would allow. I now know why. I never wanted to hire help to make it work. To me personally it would have defeated the purpose.
As I reflect, I learn. I realize His plan is far more advanced than I can see.
“In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will” -Ephesians 1:11 NIV
More posts coming soon.
-Lauren
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