Will I still hear you, Lord?

My anxiousness and fear for the upcoming stress of having another child has taken over. In those moments when my head gets spinning, I sit back to seek Him. It never fails, something or someone always interrupts. If the noise is loud now, how loud will it be in a few months? For now I have few silent moments between the fusses of arguing siblings. They are only 2 and 4, will they ever play nice together? At least I still have some silence when they sleep, well until the new baby arrives.

When life gets too loud, will I still hear His voice?

I can still remember my head pounding and my eyes weeping from all the hard work of just getting use to having two children. I remember feeling alone like nobody in the world could or should help me because I did this to myself. I remember crying out for the Lord’s strength because my physical and mental ability was completely strained. One day, I remember trying to read His word. The noise kept getting louder and louder. Both of their needs were met,diapers were clean and bellies were full. They were just crying for mommy’s attention. Mommy was crying for attention too. You can read more about this time in my life here: Blame,Guilt and Peace.

In the midst of all these struggles, I’m reminded of all the comfort and help I did receive. I’m reminded of the lessons and wisdom that I now have. I’m reminded that I’m constantly growing and learning.

“God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.”-2 Corinthians 9:8

No matter the noise and all the chaos, He will still be able to reach me. I will still be able to hear Him. There will always be a way to seek Him even when it seems impossible. In all things at all times He is still able to bless me and I will abound in every good work!


bless you abundantly

4 thoughts on “Will I still hear you, Lord?

  1. Lauren great post my friend. God won’t let you down and it’s awesome that you share that in your message. Rest and enjoy each day as it comes. Don’t try to be supermom. Not every season in life is going be balanced and that is o.k. Some moments are harder then others. But at the end of the day, all that really matters is that your kids know that they have a mommy who cares. And the most important thing for you to remember is that God cares deeply about you. Trash left on the floor, dirty dishes in the sink is no big deal in the scheme of things. Sometimes Moms just have to go into the bathroom for a minute and breathe. Sometimes we have to put the kids in front of a show and rest. Sometimes we have to ask for help. Sometimes we have to go for a walk with the kids in a stroller and pray out loud. Turn up the worship music and dance or sing. Your doing good. Your kids are blessed to have you. God is always with us, even in the noise. Just keep looking for Him. Don’t stop looking. Seek Him. And Lauren that is what is so beautiful about you, your desire is to be in relationship with God. That’s awesome.

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